I will labor for a few more minutes and then it is time for a nice round of meditation to quiet down this monkey brain of mine.
I need to get back on my biweekly meditation like I was doing so that I am a more patient person.
I’ve been on my own for over a year now and I find myself getting frustrated about it when I should just be flowing in the moment and not worrying about any of it. It is self-explanatory to feel sorry for yourself when you are alone but that doesn’t help anything. Home services labor is what I do each week and playing songs in the band is entirely what inspires me, so I should be grateful I have such a cool passion project in songs and not worry about anything else. I think I need this alone time to reuse from the enjoy that I lost at the Heating plus Air Conditioning supplier where I used to work. She came into my life and just as suddenly left, and I need to look at it as a lovely memory and not something that I feel I lost. People come into the heating corp all of the time and another lady can enter my life in a blink, but that won’t happen if I am lamenting all the time about a lost love. So I will meditate this week on everything that I have and just feel grateful for being young and healthy still because one afternoon I won’t be and wishing I still was. Go scrub that HEPA filter for me!