I am chugging away with my work online and want it to be done by 330pm, which is still almost four hours away, so I am right on track as usual to get work done in time. My life is very episodic, but this is good for someone who is on their own as it gives me discipline and routine each day to keep me on track with bills and everything. I have to let go of a few things bothering me, mainly losses, both financially and emotionally and I think I am finally accepting the losses. My HVAC supplier told me that life is about loss and accepting that loss, because everything we have at one point in our lives is going to be taken away from us, including our own lives. I’m trying to accept the loss of a strong love, my dad, a bunch of money, and some of my health. Working in the HVAC service world keeps me going when things seem to be falling apart, as it gives me structure and constancy, two things which are great for people feeling lost and hopeless. I do have some good things to look forward to in life, like the music that my band makes and new friends that have come up on the radar. I just miss my new contractor buddy back home and my mom’s crackling fireplace. I may never get to see my mom again living way over here on the other side of the Atlantic Ocean, and that is another thing I may have to accept one day.